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[Alexandra Tucker]

.xAlexandra Tuckerx.

Every time I look in your eyes
Everyday I’m watching you die

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When the little piece of blue paper slipped out of the bundle of mail Alexandra was carrying in that late afternoon, it very well may have been ignored forever and just sat there all night. Forgotten and lost into the dark night air. Yet a glance down at the papers she was holding gave her a little view of it laying there against the cement walkway to her apartment. Her brows pulled together a little as she stood there looking down at it. It was confusing to her why this little peice of folded paper seemed to be so familiar to her, like she had seen it before. Not remembering why though she stooded down with one hand to pick the little sheet before turning back to her brother's car instead of to the house. Upon opening the driver's side door and placing all of the other papers in the passenger seat she tugged quickly at the little folds of the paper before a single little picture feel out, but her eyes avoided it as she took in the familiar handwriting.

Alexandra,
I know the fighting thing is getting old between us so I'm not going to yell anymore, but how could you and Arren just up and leave like that!? We were all so scared and with what had just happened none of us knew what kind of condition you were in darling. I said I wasn't going to yell at you anymore so I won't. But little Leigha is doing really well. She's talking in her own little way, bonding with Claire and Tyler and...looks incredibly like you and...well she looks like both of you. Honey I know you're going through a rough time but I think you should just cme home. Really we can handle this if you just come back, you can go to college and see everyone again and just be normal again. I still love you whichever way you choose but just please come home.
Love Mom

Tears were freely running down her cheeks as Alex finished her mother's note and looked to the little picture of this perfect stranger. She could tell it was an older picture of Leigha but still seeing her tiny bright blue eyes, that nose that she so recognized, and then the tears were too much and Alex could no longer see the little picture. Trying hard to keep the feeling of dispair from washing over her at her choices in life Alex tucked her knees against her chest before burying her face in her knees and letting the tears soak into her denim jeans as her body shook uselessly. She regretted everything in the past two years, the fighting she had with her family, the running away with Arren, everything just seemed to have allen apart ina matter of weeks. What could she ever do to make that right?

It took a while for her tears to start to recede. Even longer before she was in any condition to look up and around with more alertness. ore than anything she wished she could just start up the car and start driving again but alas that was just not going to happen again, you could only run so much before things caught up to you in the end. So with a few wipes at her tear stained cheeks and at her eyes Alexandra looked back up through the front window only to see Arren sitting in their living room area looking out at her with crossed arms over his chest. Seeing that pained expression on his face made Alex sigh, attempting to pull herself together a little as she managed a small smile and wave at her brother, the one person in the world she could trust and rely on. Yet seeing her wave he did nothing but shake his head and turn away to walk off.

Choking down another whimper she shook her head, suddenly tired with the whole thing. So tired. Yet she still reached over when she could and picked up that little picture again. MAking sure to hold back most her emotions as she looked down on the little smiling face Alex found her own self suddenly smiling. Gently stroking the little picture like a prized possession Alex could only be happy at this little smiling child. Yes, maybe she would never recognize Alex as Mommy but Alexandra knew she still loved this little familiar child who was thousands of miles away from her at the moment. It was her acknowledging that she loved this child that gave Alexandra the chance to pull herself together and reach out to pick up the rest for the mail and push her free hand through her hair before tucking the little smiling picture into her jean pocket for the moment. Then she was out of the car and walking back to the apartment.

She should have looked both ways before crossing the stree...well parking lot. She should have taken her eyes of that little blue paper, but she didn't. Not even noticing the car until it was almost in front of her Alex's gaze was yanked up to the bright headlights of the truck blaring it's horns at her as it came. At that moment Alexandra almost considered just standing there and letting the large car hit her, because it may just have been the easiest way out of everything. It never happened though as Alex lurched backwards and bumped into the bumper of the car behind her, causing her to fall onto the hard asphalt below as the still speeding car passed by without a pause. As she feel though her hands let loose the papers she was holding as they spread out behind her to cushion the fall, meaning that as they hit the ground first and then her butt Alex gave a little gasp in shock, she would never get used to falling.

The pain quickly registered in her head though. Not enough to really bring tears or too much of a reaction, but she still let slid a few little cruses as she sat there looking about at the spilled papers everywhere, under the car, under her, wherever they could have spread they had. Groaning as she yanked her hands up with little shakes trying to shake out the loose rocks that had embedded in her still healing hands from a waterfall visit, she quickly looked at them. A little prick of blood swelled from a couple of places but nothing that she couldn't handle so she sighed and glanced about her with exasperation. It was going to be dark in a while though she realized so she managed to pushed herself up a little to roll onto her knees before she began reaching for paper after paper. It was interesting that the paper that had just been upsetting her was the first to be picked up before she moved on. As she was wondering why this was though another pair of hands helping her to pick up her mess had Alexandra leaning back a little with a "Oh!" before she looked up to see the face of her helper, whoever they were

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Status-FINISHED!!!
Outfit-Dreaminess!
Lyrics-Kill Rock N'Roll-S.O.A.D
Involved-OPEN!
Word Count-1227
Notes-This was done in between breaks of playing SuperSmashBros so please excuse the jumpiness lol :D If someone does reply....oh I'll love you forever!!!! Not tat I don't love everyone already though haha.